Friday, June 30, 2006

Thursday, June 29, 2006

a note to a friend

I have been trying to get a note to you for weeks. You would think that for a woman who has nothing but time on her hands, this would be an easy task. First it was the May full moon that made me think of you. Then I was reminded of your anniversary when i met a couple on their wedding day, walking in the park, in their wedding attire. I worried they would get ruined in the drizzle but they were okay with it, so I had to be too. Happy belated anniversary to you and your husband and the couple in the park.

Today I saw a sliver of a moon through the clouds. I realized that I don’t walk at night at more so I haven’t seen much of the moon. I guess I spend more time in the park during the day. If nothing else, I try to walk there and back each day. I haven’t lost weight, I haven’t gained any if anything I am stiffing my butt incase I get kicked there again… Walking also makes me shower and comb my hair every day or I may not get out of my pjs.

I have been home short of three months already. It’s been an interesting month and a quick one. At months end or Memorial Day, I had a completed application to work with NYC in the Training Academy. Friends tell me it can take 3 months for them to process the application. It is like being in limbo, I don’t know if I have a job and I don’t that I don’t. So all I can do is try to follow up and wait. They have everything they need from me- references and my school evaluations and I have done everything that I could possibly do. My prior employer can make it difficult for me, if they really want do but they can do that for any position that I apply for. I don’t trust them actually, I have good reason not to. I also haven’t stop applying for other jobs because I may not get the Training Academy job. I am sure something will come up at some time but it’s a tightrope that I have to walk. I prefer to the training job and keep telling the city staff that interviews me that I prefer to be placed in the Training Academy. So they recommend me and I wait. I guess the wheels turn slowly.

The wait has caused me to actually try to live in the moment. Usually, I am working two or three jobs and I currently have none. It really has given me a chance to slow things down and find my center. It also has skewed my sense of time. Life is interesting when your sense of time is different. I have sense of the work week and weekends mean that I don’t have to wonder if the phone will ring or not. Mostly, the rejection letters come midweek but personally, I don’t have much sense of time. Just one day to another. There is the day I have to move my car across the street and the day I have to go to weight watchers. Those are my two commitments and to the bank or post office. It’s nice to have the time. I haven’t had a break since undergraduate school so I’m enjoying the time. I don’t miss work or the work I did or even the people. I miss a steady income or my prior income but I am fortunate to have more than I need. I did line up a course for next semester. I had to take a Saturday course so I am teaching Advanced Practice with Individuals on Saturday mornings at 9am in Soho… that would something, not working all week but only Saturday at 9am. I just didn’t want it to interfere. I have also had to learn to be patient. For someone who is always on the run or go, slowing down has been a benefit but releasing being impatient has been a unexpected gift.

I guess, I could go on and on with the things I am learning from this different experience. I have learned that I need at least 8 hours of sleep to feel good. And of course my cat has benefited from my being home and all the attention she gets. Its actually such a gift to be free, if only the anxiety that I have about getting a job will decrease so I can enjoy it thoroughly. It really interesting from a more global to find myself here, after all the places that i have been in my career path...i guess my 20s and 30s were building my career and getting to the pinacle. Once i got to the top, i got to stay there for a while. I did hit a point of emptiness with no where else to go or i thought there was no where else to go. So i went sideways to try something new. That sideways took me to another path and its that new path that i am following but i never expected this unexpected and welcomed break in the middle... i guess i will get to work eventually... or have to get back to work, im just not in any position to retire. its more about the income than anything else right now.

The week of downpour was the worst so far. It was that week that I had to order the Springsteen ticket. I needed a party so I had to set one up. I got bored and depressed being wet all the time. It was an okay dance party and I had to plan another for a friend who turned 30. The amazing thing that some of the greatest things have come to me. The world is really an abundant place. People have called with tickets to events and of course NY has its share of free concerts and movies. There is an entire subculture of denizens that take advantage of these events. They fascinate me more than the movies or concert. People watching is an Olympic sport. I ended up with a pair of liberty tickets so I really have no complaints being home. Living with the uncertainty that I may be back to work any day, has caused me to try to enjoy each one of them and with most of my friends working, I have found a new group to hang out with. My park pals, or at least the ones that I can speak to daily, including the three guys who are drunk by the time I get to see them.

I have this idea of teaching parenting groups or doing some consultant work with those upper west side families who need help structuring their kids. If Supernanny is so popular than there is a need. . I probably can make a ton of money, teaching people what is really common sense if you know standard child develop and not to be guilty about saying no to your kids. I don’t have all that working mom guilt to deal with so I can help get these out of control kids back into control. Its really simple family structuring techniques and I have the credentials and skills to do it.

Fourth of July is around the corner and I am heading up to my parents so I can go to New Bedford for the ten dollar folk festival. They actually shut the town down and there is music on each corner. I have been going up there for the last 4 or 5 years.. I haven’t looked at the schedule but know that Ill catch john gorka. I always like to see him. Before, I see you, I will have seen Dar and Paul Simon.. Someone sent me a falcon ridge ticket so I can stop up there for two days before I head to Philly for MCC . Could I ask for a better July? …. Who knows I may be working by then or I may be still home. I know that I will be where I am meant to be….for sure..

Well this is much longer than I ever intended….. I sure hope you are well and your days are filled with just how you want them to be.

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

everyone in the pool

Capricorn Horoscope for week of June 29, 2006

Capricorn Horoscope for week of June 29, 2006

Verticle Oracle card Capricorn (December 22-January 19)
Last week's symbol was a closed fist. The mood was determined, fierce, and intolerant of any funny stuff. But you're leaving the zone in which that stance made sense. Your new metaphor is the open hand. Your chances at succeeding will increase in proportion to your willingness to negotiate for peace, seek connection, and accept input. Receptivity is the Truth and the Way. "Why not?" is your power mantra. To prime yourself for the transition, I suggest that wherever you are right now, you spread your arms wide and unfurl your welcoming palms.

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Saturday, June 24, 2006

Friday, June 23, 2006

mutts book club 5

springsteen at MSG

etlists: 2006

June 22 / New York, NY / Madison Square Garden
Notes: "This is an immigrant song for New York City," Springsteen said before tonight's new opening number -- no, not a song off Led Zeppelin III, but at the moment we can't tell you exactly what it was, either. On the setlist as "American Land," it had a recurring refrain of "home in the American land," but it wasn't "He Lies in the American Land," despite that song's association with Pete Seeger and the similarity in title. A new Springsteen song? Watch this space for more as we know it.... In any case, it was certainly a world premiere, an Irish reel with a Clancy Brothers/Tommy Makem feel to it; lyrically, a vivid portrait of the immigrant experience in the vein of Ry Cooder's "Across the Borderline." At the end, Bruce had one more dedication for it: "for all you travelers out there." All six tour horn players were featured, with Clark and Curt exiting after the opener and returning to the stage for "Poor Man" forward. Also returning to the fold was Patti Scialfa -- after the just-as-long-absent "If I Should Fall Behind," Bruce told the crowd, "She came out of semi-retirement to be here tonight!" During "Old Dan Tucker" Bruce held a sing-off between New York and New Jersey, but he said that this Madison Square Garden show was really a test for the band, playing for "bloodthirsty New Yorkers." And indeed, the crowd ran hot and cold. But here in the current hometown of the Max Weinberg 7, there was a particularly rabid response for the horns on songs like "Jesse James" and "Oklahoma Home," and "Jacob's Ladder" pulled 'em all in. In the encore, "Bring Them Home" was stripped down to feature Springsteen alone on harmonica and guitar, dedicated to Steve Earle. One really nice touch came at the end of "Pay Me My Money Down," when the person who came out to tell tuba player Art Baron "time to go" was not Bruce as usual, but Art's mother. And judging from his priceless reaction, it came as a very pleasant surprise -- quite a sentimental moment. More family and friends taking in the Garden show: Bruce's mother and aunts, Steven and Maureen Van Zandt, Max Weinberg, Tim Russert (whose wife, Maureen Orth, wrote the Newsweek story in '75), and in the pit, Dave Marsh, Jon Landau, and Bill Flanagan.
Setlist: American Land/John Henry/O Mary Don't You Weep/Johnny 99/Old Dan Tucker/Eyes on the Prize/Jesse James/Atlantic City/Erie Canal/My Oklahoma Home/If I Should Fall Behind/Mrs. McGrath/How Can a Poor Man Stand Such Times and Live?/Jacob's Ladder/We Shall Overcome/Open All Night/Pay Me My Money Down
Encore: Bring Them Home/My City of Ruins/Ramrod/You Can Look (But You Better Not Touch)/When the Saints Go Marching In

Leonard Cohen: I'm Your Man

Leonard Cohen: I'm Your Man
Directed by Lian Lunson
Lionsgate, opens June 21, Film Forum
About two-thirds into this rather grating hagiography, U2's Bono truncates his spew of superlatives, makes his best cut-the-crap face, and asks if we can "get serious" for a moment. Get serious? This Last Waltz–like doc is almost funereal, full of reverent banalities spliced between overly folksy takes on melancholic Leonard Cohen bombshells. At the film's core is the "Came So Far for Beauty" Cohen tribute concert held last year in Sydney, for which producer Hal Willner organized a lineup of musicians to interpret Cohen's songs.

Always loving but at times soporific, these renditions range from a dull Beth Orton version of "Sisters of Mercy" to an unironically anthemic "Anthem" by Julie Christensen and Perla Batalla. Kate and Anna McGarrigle can usually be counted on for loopy banter, but aside from breezy-bitchy Rufus Wainwright, who also delivers a musical highlight with "Chelsea Hotel

2," the chatty levity is left to the sly and spry old rumbler himself. Oddly, director Lian Lunson sabotages even Cohen's bits with ominous whooshes and psycho-synth tones. Cohen so doesn't need to be edged toward eerie. He projects creepy poet poon-hound Dionysian-Buddhist tricksiness all by himself. These spooky sonics skew Cohen's engaging account of his years spent in seclusion as an ordained Mt. Baldy monk.

Longtime fans won't need the Edge's Moses comparisons to convince them that Cohen is indeed their man. And for newcomers, full performances from Sydney might make a better introduction than Nick Cave saying the usual stuff about Songs of Love and Hate making his teenage self feel cool. Performance-wise, Antony's withering "If It Be Your Will" simply kills, though Willner might have squashed the distracting background vocals. Teddy Thompson proves again that while he carries a pretty tune, he didn't inherit his parents' compelling vocal serration. Martha Wainwright does "The Traitor" justice, even if Rufus still petulantly skirts the key rhyme in his oft performed cover of "Hallelujah." But as you might suspect, with U2 behind him in a tight cabaret, Cohen, his sad eyes dancing and his growl coyly teasing, dusts 'em all with the graveyard smash "Tower of Song."

A NOTE TO THE READER - L cohen

Dear Reader,

Thank you for coming to this book. It is an honor, and a surprise, to have the frenzied thoughts of my youth expressed in Chinese characters. I sincerely appreciate the efforts of the translator and the publishers in bringing this curious work to your attention. I hope you will find it useful or amusing.

When I was young, my friends and I read and admired the old Chinese poets. Our ideas of love and friendship, of wine and distance, of poetry itself, were much affected by those ancient songs. Much later, during the years when I practiced as a Zen monk under the guidance of my teacher Kyozan Joshu Roshi, the thrilling sermons of Lin Chi (Rinzai) were studied every day. So you can understand, Dear Reader, how privileged I feel to be able to graze, even for a moment, and with such meager credentials, on the outskirts of your tradition.

This is a difficult book, even in English, if it is taken too seriously. May I suggest that you skip over the parts you don't like? Dip into it here and there. Perhaps there will be a passage, or even a page, that resonates with your curiosity. After a while, if you are sufficiently bored or unemployed, you may want to read it from cover to cover. In any case, I thank you for your interest in this odd collection of jazz riffs, pop-art jokes, religious kitsch and muffled prayer æ an interest which indicates, to my thinking, a rather reckless, though very touching, generosity on your part.

Beautiful Losers was written outside, on a table set among the rocks, weeds and daisies, behind my house on Hydra, an island in the Aegean Sea. I lived there many years ago. It was a blazing hot summer. I never covered my head. What you have in your hands is more of a sunstroke than a book.

Dear Reader, please forgive me if I have wasted your time.

Los Angeles, February 27, 2000

Leonard Cohen

Thursday, June 22, 2006

mutts book club 4

Capricorn Horoscope for week of June 22, 2006

Capricorn Horoscope for week of June 22, 2006

Verticle Oracle card Capricorn (December 22-January 19)
"What the heart knows today the head will understand tomorrow," wrote Irish storyteller James Stephens. It's lucky for you that this is true, Capricorn--or at least it will be lucky if you're smart enough to trust your heart, which has already figured out a certain truth that your head is still days away from registering. This is not merely a pretty metaphor, by the way. Despite what you may have been led to believe about the nature of the heart, it is actually an organ of intelligence that is capable of deep thought.

VDAY event 2 - i do tricks and drugs but i am not a murderer

ny One Of Us: Words From Prison
June 21 Wednesday 8:00pm (doors at 7:00PM)
Location

Alice Tully Hall at Lincoln Center, 1941 Broadway, 65th Street and Broadway
Details

More than 90% of women in prison have experienced violence in their own lives. Words From Prison will reveal the connection between women in prison and the violence that often brings them there. Presented in conjunction with the American Civil Liberties Union and the New York Civil Liberties Union, this event will bring forth raw voices of fierceness and honesty written by women from prisons across the nation and performed by great actors, moving forward toward healing, understanding, and change, ultimately impacting laws and treatment of incarcerated women. There has been outreach to women in five major federal prisons for their stories. Images from Deborah Luster’s book One Big Self: Prisoners of Louisiana will provide the visual backdrop for the evening. The evening will benefit ACLU and the NYCLU. Kimberlé Crenshaw, Rosario Dawson, Swoosie Kurtz, Mindy McCready, Rosie O’Donnell, Phylicia Rashad, Kemba Smith, and more will perform. Directed by Rhodessa Jones. Sponsored in part by The New York Women’s Foundation.
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i enter the space to see many women who looked like clients or exclients... talked to the ACLU, asked for a series of their DVD on Rights issues to be sent so i can use them in class, took my seat
a young man in ripped jeans sat down... joked about being my blind date...he was there for a woman's study class and didnt want to be there..
we talked about Woman's studies and the event began

eve ensler and Kimberle crenshaw talked about their projects and how this came to be

seats on stage with podiums.. Kemba Smith, received clemecy from Clinton for her time served... she read a story of violence about the night she talked to the police and how her boyfriend beat her til she remembered the story. the night was readings of women about their experiences, pre prision and post prison and violence. Lots of child abuse, sexual assault and domestic violence

kemba Smith, Rosario Dawson, Shirley knight , Rosie O’Donnell, Phylicia Rashad, Betty gale tyson, and angela wilson

Betty Gale Tyson read her story about her poor chooses that lead her to prostitution and drug use but not murder got her 25 years after she was beaten by police and signed a statement of confession.. 25 years later, someone came forward to tell the truth and she was release. A standing ovation was given

Angela Wilson, stripper, dancer who committed murder

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i realized quickly that there was an undercurrent of women who experienced the same as the writers...women who were abused, abandoned, raped, lived in fear and lived in jail at one time...
I was not one of them...
i was in another group... the helpers the storycollectors
the caring, the brave to show up

my seat mate belonged to the third group.... Men who were there... Eve Ensler calls them Vagina Warriors..

there were things I couldnt relate to as i have not been abused
there were more things that my seat mate could not relate to because he was a male
i was a woman and understood the oppression

i am finding that being out of work for 2 months has taken down some of the shield i have worn for 25 years to do my work. i feel the stories deeply and wonder if i will still be effective when i have to hear them and listen.
i think the break is good for my soul and spirit...
i view the stories differently
i hear them differently
i think actually will be better at hearing them
a break has worked to make me more humane and human
like a cleansing of the palatte

Macheath spends like a sailor

The Threepenny Opera serves up a deliciously dark satire of “respectable” society, with dashing thieves, saucy prostitutes, and lingering melodies. Based on Elizabeth Hauptmann’s German translation of John Gay’s eighteenth-century The Beggar’s Opera, The Threepenny Opera thrusts the audience into the seedy underworld of Mack the Knife, a dapper criminal and his wry love affair with Polly Peachum.

Alan Cumming (Macheath) returns to Roundabout where he won a Tony, Drama Desk, Outer Critics Circle, Theater World, New York Press, FANY and New York Public Advocate’s Awards as the Emcee in Cabaret and also starred in Noel Coward's Design For Living. In London, he has been seen in Hamlet at the Donmar Warehouse (TMA Best Actor award and Shakespeare Globe nomination), Cabaret (Olivier nomination), La Bete (Olivier nomination), Conquest of the South Pole (Olivier nomination) and seasons with the RSC and RNT, where he won an Olivier Award for his performance in Accidental Death of an Anarchist (which he also co-adapted). Recent films include X2: X-Men United, Spy Kids 3, Nicholas Nickleby, Josie and the Pussycats, Company Man, Titus, Urbania, Eyes Wide Shut, Emma, Circle of Friends, Goldeneye and Buddy. www.alancumming.com

Jim Dale (Mr. Peachum). To millions of children Jim is the voice of Harry Potter. So far he has recorded all six books in the series. For his audio work, he has won a record six “Audie Awards” In 2004 Queen Elizabeth II awarded Jim the MBE* for his work in promoting children’s literature. *Member of the Order of the British Empire. Jim has been in show business for over fifty years. At the age of seventeen, he became the youngest professional comedian in the British Music Halls. At the request of Laurence Olivier he joined the British National Theatre in 1969. His work as an actor on and off Broadway include, Scapino, Joe Egg (Roundabout), Privates On Parade (Roundabout), Candide, Me and My Girl, Barnum, Travels With My Aunt, The Music Man, Comedians, A Christmas Carol – The Musical and Address Unknown. In the category of Best Actor he has won a Tony Award, four Tony nominations, four Drama Desk Awards, three New York Critics Awards and the Lucille Lortel Award. In 1967 he received an Academy Award nomination for writing the theme song for the film Georgy Girl.

Ana Gasteyer (Mrs. Peachum) is best known for her incomparable work on “Saturday Night Live.” Ana can currently be seen on stage in the leading role as Elphaba in the Chicago production of the critically-acclaimed musical Wicked. Following her run in Eve Ensler's acclaimed Off-Broadway hit The Vagina Monologues, and her Broadway debut as “Columbia” in The Rocky Horror Show, she continued her work on the New York stage starring in Manhattan Theatre Club's hit production of Kimberly Akimbo by celebrated playwright David Lindsay-Abaire, as Fanny Brice in Funny Girl in a sold-out run at the Pittsburgh Civic Light Opera. On stage most recently, she starred in the NYC Opera's production of Cinderella and Off-Broadway opposite Anna Paquin in Roulette by Paul Weitz. On film, Ana has been seen in the recent blockbuster Mean Girls, What Women Want with Mel Gibson, Woman on Top, Dick, and What's The Worst That Could Happen? opposite John Leguizamo and Martin Lawrence.

Cyndi Lauper (Jenny). The vibrant talent of Cyndi Lauper has graced our world for 25 years. Beginning in 1980 Cyndi and her band at the time, Blue Angel released a self-titled album but in 1983 as many artists do, Cyndi decided to depart the group and take on the world as a solo artist. It was in 1984 with the release of her debut album, She's So Unusual that Cyndi scored massive success - 9 million copies sold worldwide - and quite literally became an overnight success. She's So Unusual was the first debut album and the first debut album by a solo artist to garner four top five singles, "Girls Just Want To Have Fun," "All Through The Night," "She Bop," and "Time After Time." She's So Unusual earned Cyndi a Grammy Award for Best New Artist. And this was just the beginning... In addition to proving herself as a Grammy-winning artist, Cyndi Lauper has spent much of the past twenty-five years as a devoted advocate and philanthropist for such organizations as AMFAR, Aids Research, Planned Parenthood, Women's Rights as well as for Gay communities all over the world. She has been twice nominated for the Emmy Award - has won once - and has established herself as one of America's most loved fashion icons. www.cyndilauper.com

Nellie McKay (Polly) began recording her critically acclaimed debut album, a double-disc set entitled Get Away From Me in February 2004. Nellie’s stage credits include Lily in George F. Walker’s The End of Civilization, Louison in Moliere's The Imaginary Invalid, and the Cuckoo Clock in Pinocchio. In late 2003, she opened for Cyndi Lauper in a series of concert performances and, 2004, performed around the country and overseas. She opened for Sting in Switzerland, France, Spain and Germany and opened for the Barenaked Ladies and Alanis Morissette on that tour's northeast and west coast dates. Among her 2004 U.S. concert dates, Nellie opened for Lou Reed at Carnegie Hall. Nellie has also participated in benefits for groups ranging from Planned Parenthood to Fair Fund to the ACLU and most recently a benefit for Tibet House at Carnegie Hall. Nellie is currently recording her second studio album - in addition to working on television, theater and film projects and performing live at Lincoln Center as part of the Great American Songbook Series. www.NellieMcKay.com

The Threepenny Opera cast also features Christopher Innvar (Les Miserables, Victor/Victoria) as Tiger Brown, Carlos Leon (Aunt Dan and Lemon, Does a Tiger Wear a Necktie) as Filtch, and Brian Charles Rooney (The Ballad of Bonnie & Clyde, Pure Heaven: The Music of Kay Thompson) as Lucy.
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a new revival of a classic play with drag queens and gender bending...cyndi lauper, alan cummings, jime dale, nellie mckay- the first act is a little slow the second act is BRAVO
orchestra right tickets for 25.00
never seen it...
had to take advantage of a matinee while i can ....
do something you would have love to do while home... matinee...
so i did it