Monday, January 31, 2005

Yoko's peace event

Peace Event For John Lennon
yoko ono

This is a call for all countries and their people who wish for World Peace.

You, the carrier of good tidings, be proud, swift and wise. By being in

peace, you are already part of the peaceful world.
A: VIP (Visit In Peace) Event

Visit the Middle East.
Visit Asia.
Visit Africa.
Visit countries in the Southern Hemisphere.
Visit countries in the Northern Hemisphere.

Take photos of your friends who wish to make the trip but cannot.
Take music and/or an instrument from your country.
Take one thing you wear often and give it to somebody
you meet there.
What you give could be
As small as a handkerchief.
As useful as a T-shirt.
As pretty as a necklace.

a) Watch the sunrise and compare it with the ones at home.
b) Watch the sunset and compare it with the ones at home.
c) Watch the moonlight and compare it with the ones at home.

a) Stay until you find a friend to talk to.
b) Stay until you start to appreciate the country.
c) Stay until you start to feel love for their children.

Make a wish and hold it in your heart.
Deliver a wish and see it unfold.
Send a wish and ask it to be shared.

Bring back something you bought there.
Bring back memories.
Bring back a smile.

B: HIP (Home In Peace) Event
For those who cannot make the trip:

In your mind
In your heart
In your dream

Pen pal:
Make pen pals in countries you've never been to.
Ask your friends to do the same.
Make pen pals in troubled countries.
Ask your friends to do the same.
Make pen pals with people of different religion and beliefs from you.
Ask your friends to do the same.

Pin a world map on your wall.
Start putting flags on the countries you have pen pals in.
Take a photo of your map every month to record the increase of the numbers of flags.

Imagine all the people holding hands.
Imagine all the people hugging each other.
Imagine all the people living life in peace.

Listen to the heartbeat:
a) your own
b) your mate's
c) your child's
Listen to people.
Listen to animals.
Listen to the planet.
Listen to the Universe.
Listen to the Earth turning.

C: DIP (Dance In Peace) Event

When you are feeling bad
Do one thing a day
To make your heart dance.
It could be a simple thing like looking up at the sky.
If you can't manage even that
Do something for somebody
To make his/her heart dance.
It could be a simple thing like giving a call.
Do this for awhile and
Your life will change in a big way.
One day we'll all dance together.
Alright? y.o.

Note: send the Peace Event to your friends.
To be part of the Peace Event record,
send your experience to: IK (Instant Karma)
E-Mail: IK!


Mutts by Patrick Mcdonnell is my favorite comic strip

I love earl, and crabby the summer crab and mooch the moochin cat (yesh he will mooch)
and their friend stinkin puddin and guard dog and shnelly moochin cat's girfriend of sorts.. She keeps doggin him and he court and serenades her.. and all those little kitties that get adopted through this strip..

I love this strip and it makes my day to read about their adventures and the adventures of their people.

cost of war

Friday, January 28, 2005

lyrics to unbreakable chain...daniel lanois

***The Unbreakable Chain

You wake up and there's something there tugging at your sleeve
It's not the pitter-patter of the one in your dreams
Held on by the chain, the unbreakable chain
Held there by the chain, the unbreakable chain

You walk and you know that the wind is not passing you by
It's speaking and you listen and the tears don't come out when you cry
cry cry cryin won't break the unbreakable chain
cryin won't break the unbreakable chain

It's thirty years ago and you live with your decision
You talk to him in a prayer - you send out your transmission
But a prayer won't break the unbreakable chain,
Your prayers won't break the unbreakable chain

Your baby's not yours but he walks the streets of your city
He wants to know you, there's no self pity
It's pulling at your heart, the unbreakable chain
pulling at your heart, with the unbreakable chain

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

week for january 27th horoscope

Believing" in God is like "believing" in the taste of a peach without ever having tasted an actual peach. But what if I told you that you could actually commune with the Divine Wow through up-close, personal encounters that are as vivid and palpable as eating a peach? It's a distinct possibility for you in the coming weeks, Capricorn. The best way to increase your chances of having this heart-to-heart intimacy with Supreme Magic is, first, to want it very badly, and second, to unleash generous expressions of love as often as possible.

the movie of my life

i hate this darn snow...not really.. i hate having no where to park my car.. so i started taking the train from brooklyn to Queens. As i had to go to Long Island, i decided to take the Long Island RR out to garden city. .. On my way back , i hit the platform to wait for the train and saw all the people like little bend over soldiers looking for the train to come down the tracks....

i realized that i was like those people in the movies...who wait for the Commuter train.... for a night at least..
I watched their loved one or attached ones meet them at the train station when the train pulled in, no one walked home.... they all got picked up...

I wondered what their routine was and i realized i am not sure that i liked their movie...

they were part of mine for one night

Friday, January 21, 2005

the christianization of the inaugural address

I replaced all references to liberty and freedom which B*sh used over 30 times with
Christianity and reference to christianzation of the world

Inaugural Address by George W. Bush

Published: January 20, 2005

Following is the text of President George W. Bush's inaugural address, as recorded by The New York Times:
Vice President Cheney, Mr. Chief Justice, President Carter, President Bush, President Clinton, members of the United States Congress, reverend clergy, distinguished guests, fellow citizens:
On this day, prescribed by law and marked by ceremony, we celebrate the durable wisdom of our Constitution, and recall the deep commitments that unite our country. I am grateful for the honor of this hour, mindful of the consequential times in which we live, and determined to fulfill the oath that I have sworn and you have witnessed.

At this second gathering, our duties are defined not by the words I use, but by the history we have seen together. For a half a century, America defended our own Christianity by standing watch on distant borders. After the shipwreck of communism came years of relative quiet, years of repose, years of sabbatical. And then there came a day of fire.
We have seen our vulnerability and we have seen its deepest source. For as long as whole regions of the world simmer in resentment and tyranny prone to ideologies that feed hatred and excuse murder, violence will gather and multiply in destructive power, and cross the most defended borders, and raise a mortal threat. There is only one force of history that can break the reign of hatred and resentment, and expose the pretensions of tyrants and reward the hopes of the decent and tolerant, and that is the force of Christianity
We are led, by events and common sense, to one conclusion: The survival of Christianity in our land increasingly depends on the success of Christianity in other lands. The best hope for peace in our world is the expansion of Christianity in all the world.
America's vital interests and our deepest beliefs are now one. From the day of our founding, we have proclaimed that every man and woman on this earth has rights, and dignity, and matchless value, because they bear the image of the maker of heaven and earth. Across the generations we have proclaimed the imperative of Christianity because no one is fit to be a master and no one deserves to be a slave. Advancing these ideals is the mission that created our nation. It is the honorable achievement of our fathers. Now it is the urgent requirement of our nation's security, and the calling of our time.
So it is the policy of the United States to seek and support the growth of Christian institutions in every nation and culture, with the ultimate goal of ending non Christian religions in our world.
This is not primarily the task of arms, though we will defend ourselves and our friends by force of arms when necessary. Christianity, by its nature, must be chosen, and defended by citizens, and sustained by the rule of law and the protection of minorities. And when the soul of a nation finally speaks, the institutions that arise may reflect customs and traditions very different from our own. America will not impose our own style of government on the unwilling. Our goal instead is to help others find their own voice, attain their own Christianity , and make their own way.
The great objective of ending tyranny is the concentrated work of generations. The difficulty of the task is no excuse for avoiding it. America's influence is not unlimited, but fortunately for the oppressed, America's influence is considerable, and we will use it confidently in Christianity’s cause.
My most solemn duty is to protect this nation and its people from further attacks and emerging threats. Some have unwisely chosen to test America's resolve, and have found it firm.
We will persistently clarify the choice before every ruler and every nation: The moral choice between oppression, which is always wrong, and christianity, which is eternally right. America will not pretend that jailed dissidents prefer their chains, or that women welcome humiliation and servitude, or that any human being aspires to live at the mercy of bullies.
We will encourage reform in other religions by making clear that success in our relations will require the decent treatment of their own people. America's belief in Christianity will guide our policies. Yet religion must be more than the grudging concessions of dictators; they are secured by free dissent and the participation of the converted . In the long run, there is no justice without Christianity, and there can be no human rights without Christianity

(Some, I know, have questioned the global appeal of Christianity though this time in history, four decades defined by the swiftest advance of Christianity ever seen, is an odd time for doubt. Americans, of all people, should never be surprised by the power of our ideals. Eventually, the call of Christianity comes to every mind and every soul. We do not accept the existence of permanent tyranny because we do not accept the possibility of permanent slavery. Christianity will come to those who love it.

Today, America speaks anew to the peoples of the world:
All who live in tyranny and hopelessness can know: the United States will not ignore your oppression, or excuse your oppressors. When you stand for Christianity , we will stand with you.
Christian reformers facing repression, prison, or exile can know: America sees you for who you are: the future leaders of your free country.
The rulers of outlaw regimes can know that we still believe as Abraham Lincoln did: Those who deny Christianity to others deserve it not for themselves; and, under the rule of a just God, cannot long retain it.
The leaders of governments with long habits of control need to know: To serve your people, you must learn to trust them. Start on this journey of Christianity and America will walk at your side. And all the allies of the United States can know: we honor your friendship, we rely on your counsel, and we depend on your help. Division among christian nations is a primary goal of Christianity 's enemies. The concerted effort of chrsitian nations to promote Christianity is a prelude to our enemies' defeat. Today, I also speak anew to my fellow citizens: From all of you, I have asked patience in the hard task of securing America, which you have granted in good measure. Our country has accepted obligations that are difficult to fulfill, and would be dishonorable to abandon. Yet because we have acted in the great liberating tradition of this nation, tens of millions have achieved Christianity . And as hope kindles hope, millions more will find it. By our efforts, we have lit a fire as well, a fire in the minds of men. It warms those who feel its power, it burns those who fight its progress, and one day this untamed fire of Christianity will reach the darkest corners of our world. A few Americans have accepted the hardest duties in this cause in the quiet work of conversion , the idealistic work of helping raise up Christian governments, the dangerous and necessary work of fighting heathens . Some have shown their devotion to our country in deaths that honored their whole lives and we will always honor their names and their sacrifice.
All Americans have witnessed this idealism, and some for the first time. I ask our youngest citizens to believe the evidence of your eyes. You have seen duty and allegiance in the determined faces of our soldiers. You have seen that life is fragile, and evil is real, and courage triumphs. Make the choice to serve in a cause larger than your wants, larger than yourself and in your days you will add not just to the wealth of our country, but to its character.
America has need of Christianity, because we have essential work at home, the unfinished work of American Christians. In a world moving toward Christianity, we are determined to show the meaning and promise of Christianity.
In America's ideal of Christianity , citizens find the dignity and security of religious independence, instead of laboring on the edge of subsistence. This is the broader definition of Christianity that motivated the Homestead Act, the Social Security Act and the G.I. Bill of Rights. And now we will extend this vision by reforming great institutions to serve the needs of our time. To give every American a stake in the promise and future of our country, we will bring the highest standards to our schools and build an ownership society. We will widen the ownership of homes and businesses, retirement savings and health insurance preparing our people for the challenges of life in a Christian society. By making every citizen an agent of his or her own destiny, we will give our fellow Christian greater freedom from want and fear, and make our society more prosperous and just and equal.
In America's ideal Christianity, the public interest depends on private character, on integrity and tolerance toward others, and the rule of conscience in our own lives. Christanitiy relies, in the end, on the governing of the self. That edifice of character is built in families, supported by communities with standards, and sustained in our national life by the truths of Sinai, the Sermon on the Mount, the words of the Koran, and the varied faiths of our people. Americans move forward in every generation by reaffirming all that is good and true that came before ideals of justice and conduct that are the same yesterday, today, and forever.

In America's ideal of Christianity , the exercise of rights is ennobled by service, and mercy and a heart for the weak. Christianity for all does not mean independence from one another. Our nation relies on men and women who look after a neighbor and surround the lost with love. Americans, at our best, value the life we see in one another, and must always remember that even the unwanted have worth. And our country must abandon all the habits of racism, because we cannot carry the message of Christianity and the baggage of bigotry at the same time.
From the perspective of a single day, including this day of dedication, the issues and questions before our country are many. From the viewpoint of centuries, the questions that come to us are narrowed and few. Did our generation advance the cause of Christianity ? And did our character bring credit to that cause?
These questions that judge us also unite us, because Americans of every party and background, Americans by choice and by birth, are bound to one another in the cause of Christianity . We have known divisions, which must be healed to move forward in great purposes and I will strive in good faith to heal them. Yet those divisions do not define America. We felt the unity and fellowship of our nation when Christianity came under attack, and our response came like a single hand over a single heart. And we can feel that same unity and pride whenever Christians acts for good, and the victims of disaster are given hope, and the unjust encounter justice, and the captives are set free.
We go forward with complete confidence in the eventual triumph of freedom. Not because history runs on the wheels of inevitability; it is human choices that move events. Not because we consider ourselves a chosen nation; God moves and chooses as He wills. We have confidence because Christianity is permanent hope of mankind, the hunger in dark places, the longing of the soul. When our Founders declared a new order of the ages, when soldiers died in wave upon wave for a union based on Christianity, when citizens marched in peaceful outrage under the banner Christianity Now they were acting on an ancient hope that is meant to be fulfilled. History has an ebb and flow of Christianity, but history also has a visible direction, set by Christianity and the Author of Christianity
When the Declaration of Independence was first read in public and the Liberty Bell was sounded in celebration, a witness said, It rang as if it meant something. In our time it means something still. America, in this young century, proclaims liberty throughout all the world, and to all the inhabitants thereof. Renewed in our strength, tested but not weary we are ready for the greatest achievements in the history of Christianity
May God bless you, and may He watch over the United States of America

Thursday, January 20, 2005

week of January 20th horoscope

Capricorn Horoscope for week of January 20, 2005

Verticle Oracle card Capricorn (December 22-January 19)
Ludacris is "a well-rounded hedonist who pursues a balanced lineup of vices and addictions," says Nathan Rabin in his review of the hip-hop star's CD, The Red Light District. I suggest that you treat Ludacris as your partial role model in the coming week, Capricorn, even as you also regard him as your anti-role model. Here's what I mean: You should be a well-rounded hedonist, but not by pursuing vices and addictions. Instead, seek out excitement that resonates with your noblest ideals, pleasures that thrill your soul as well as your body, and blissful adventures that enhance the health of you and everyone else you encounter.

Monday, January 17, 2005

the wise words of Fontaine the Junkie

Every breath you take
Every move you make
Every bond you break
Every step you take

I'll be watching you

Every single day
Every word you say
Every game you play
Every night you stay

I'll be watching you

Oh can't you see
You belong to me
How my poor heart aches with every step you take

Every move you make
Every vow you break
Every smile you fake
Every claim you stake

I'll be watching you

Since you've gone I've been lost without a trace
I dream at night I can only see your face
I look around but it's you I can't replace
I feel so cold and I long for your embrace
I keep crying baby, baby please

Every move you make
Every vow you break
Every smile you fake
Every claim you stake

I'll be watching you is © 1995 - 2005 by Marisa Meisters

Sunday, January 16, 2005

MLK day

Nancy Giles on the CBS Morning Show wrote and editoral that struck me as true. After explaining Johnson signed the Voter Rights Act of 1964 and in the face of the travesty of the ELection of 2004, the best way to honor Dr King is to advocate for election reform
Why is it that in the US that there were not enough voting machines, not everyone was secure that their vote was counted, people had to wait for up to 8 hours to vote and the ballotting was faulty with no paper ballots. The citizens of the US should be reassured that their vote counts, so to honor Dr King to petition Congress to enforce election reform..

In the face of the world, the US will holding elections for leaders and the US cant get its own election process so that it is fair to all, that all can have the same opportunity to vote, and to ensure their vote is counted and not disappear in a black box...

so being 45....

So now how do i feel about 45

I went to see whoopi goldberg on friday night, january 14... when i was going there, i thought everything that i need is already inside of me..
i had always heard that phrase and understood intellectually but i really didnt understand it emotionally.. I know what it means but i really dont know how to operationalize it or tap into those resources that i have inside that i have not sure..

so i went to see whoopi goldberg, a treat to myself and before the show started, i saw a woman buying posters, the merch maven informed her that if she waited at the stage door on 46th that Whoopi would sign it..
a RED light went off in my head.. Could i ask the house manager to send one backstage to get a signature... could i plead and inform her that THIS GOldberg was having a birthday and how about

well i put my plan in action and the house manager informed me that she would send it backstage but not promise anything... after, i waited for her anxiously and then explained my situation including that i have been a big fan and i am turning 45 today..
i took in the show from my second row balcony seat and FONTAINE the junkie entertained me about the presidential election and politics in general.. Fontaine's advise for the PRESIDENT and for the rest of us.. WATCH the Crawl.. all you need to know is on the CNN crawl...

then the next character a 50 someodd year woman who talked about menopause and her journey to get there through the history or sanitary products over the 50s, 60s, 70s, 80s and now the 90s... she talked about changes in attitudes towards natural body functions and how she thinks men act in restrooms and why it takes women so long because we are acculturated not to touch anything.. This character considers suicide when seh realizes she loses her "mother face" and decides not to kill herself but rather gets the lesson, TO HAVE FUN with and Through MENOPAUSE... so when that size 2 GAP Clerk looks at her disparagingly when she asks for the size 16 jeans.. she will tell them.. they are 5 years away from that HUGE Butt...

the last character was a physically disabled woman who tells the audience that she is getting married and how she met the man who will be marrying her..She tells about how he opened up her life to include activities and actions that she would have never tried because she was limited by her physical body.. he helps her open up and expand her life... and even when she questions his love and desire to marry her, he tells her its those limitations that he loves the most...

i laughed, i cried and carried on.. After the show i went to the lobby to find the house manager to find my poster... so neatly inscribed..

for Sharon
you dear ager you
happy bday
love whoopi

i know from my experience that a signature or a few minutes by an artist is really not big thing to them but i also have been asked to procur that signature and now i know what it means to the person receiving it... that poster signed without my having to wait.. i dont know what i could have said, would have said... i would have had to have told the story of the naming of my cat, i would have sounded like a blabbering idiot.. so i have a memory of a special night without making an ass of myself and i can carry away, just what i needed

Being 40

I wrote this for my friend, fay who was becoming 40...

Being 40 means knowing and accepting yourself, warts and all. Being 40 solidified my identity, level of aware and I know enough to know that you have to stay flexible and that you will change again. Being 40 allows me to welcome that change and embrace it and celebrate the changes even the ones I don’t expect. Being 40 means my body will be changing and I must embrace and love those changes even if I don’t like them.
My needs will be different, more sleep, less food, more sex, liberated sex, and more green things, more water, and I know enough to give my body what it needs.

At 40 I know the difference between right and wrong and can make informed choices.

With 40, I found financial, spiritual and emotional independence to help enhance my life. I have reviewed my mistakes and have to care for them, accept them and learn from them with out regrets. I have learned at 40 to be kind to myself and try to identify situations that will cause me harm or harm to others and avoid them. If I cant avoid them, I try to reduce them .

The knowledge I have at 40 allows me to choose friends, acquaintances and sort out people who don’t add to my life but take away.. I don’t need to have everyone a friend but I need to be open to new people who can bring energy and glorious things into my sphere.. I don’t have to be liked by everyone and don’t expect to.

40 became a time to reevaluate my life, review the past and set hopes and aspirations for the next 40 years. I have already exceeded and surpassed any goals I can expect.. I have come to embrace the unexpected and marvelous people and experiences have grace my life.
I continue to make space open and keep open spaces for the new…

40 is a marker, to be to collect knowledge, experience and adventures of being and apply it to the next 40.. Being 40 has taught me that I like myself and I am getting better and better at being me.

Being 40 brings a wisdom not that of the sages or guru but a self knowledge, a self contentment. 40 is a pinnacle that leads to a more independent time of life.

Being 40 is fantastic and fabulous…


Friday, January 14, 2005

its your year and it always starts here... Part 2

In thinking about becoming 45, i think about growth and development and maturity and how i have reinvented myself with every decade. My 20s working hard to prove that i can become independant and work on the career that i studied for. I spent many years of my twenties making up for the adolescence i missed out in my teens. I made mistakes and was able to prove to be competent and mastered skills that would lead me to my 30s..

i remember being 28 and realizing that i had grown up and that i was an adult, though i have had adult responsibilities since i was young

My 30s were full of finding myself at that place on the career ladder that i thought was success at the time. I reached for the top of the career path and cruised through my late 30s..Til i decided that a change was in order and stopped smoking..

i hit the glass ceiling and wasnt busting through and didnt want to but i had to leave a place where i had been since i was 24, i had to leave a place that taken me from crayons from perfum. so it was hard and took some help (therapy) but i was able to move on... I saved myself by moving on..

this physical and emotional change caused many changes to come.. One biggest one was leaving that job and going on to another that has brought me much more. IN the end of my 30s, i redefined how i wanted to live, how i wanted to be and how i wanted to interract with others, how i wanted to give and how i wanted to get.

My 40s have been full of freedom and i have gotten better at being me and gotten to know me better.. I accept the warts and i think im having more fun now..
being 45 takes on new and complex paradigms but i will keep on the path that i am on only with a little more ME..

i need to add a little more me...

its your year and it always starts here... Part 1

My Back Pages
By Bob Dylan

Crimson flames tied through my ears
Rollin' high and mighty traps
Pounced with fire on flaming roads
Using ideas as my maps
"We'll meet on edges, soon," said I
Proud 'neath heated brow.
Ah, but I was so much older then,
I'm younger than that now.

Half-wracked prejudice leaped forth
"Rip down all hate," I screamed
Lies that life is black and white
Spoke from my skull. I dreamed
Romantic facts of musketeers
Foundationed deep, somehow.
Ah, but I was so much older then,
I'm younger than that now.

Girls' faces formed the forward path
From phony jealousy
To memorizing politics
Of ancient history
Flung down by corpse evangelists
Unthought of, though, somehow.
Ah, but I was so much older then,
I'm younger than that now.

A self-ordained professor's tongue
Too serious to fool
Spouted out that liberty
Is just equality in school
"Equality," I spoke the word
As if a wedding vow.
Ah, but I was so much older then,
I'm younger than that now.

In a soldier's stance, I aimed my hand
At the mongrel dogs who teach
Fearing not that I'd become my enemy
In the instant that I preach
My pathway led by confusion boats
Mutiny from stern to bow.
Ah, but I was so much older then,
I'm younger than that now.

Yes, my guard stood hard when abstract threats
Too noble to neglect
Deceived me into thinking
I had something to protect
Good and bad, I define these terms
Quite clear, no doubt, somehow.
Ah, but I was so much older then,
I'm younger than that now.

Copyright © 1964; renewed 1992 Special Rider Music

Thursday, January 13, 2005

Capricorn Rob Brezney horoscope for week of january 13 2005

"One of the strongest characteristics of genius is the power of lighting its own fire," wrote essayist John W. Foster. While you may not be a genius in the same way that Albert Einstein or Emily Dickinson were, Capricorn, I believe that one of your special talents deserves the title. The only problem is, you haven't consistently given that talent the nurturing it needs to flourish. Would you consider correcting this neglect in the coming weeks? No later than March 1, I hope you will put into action a disciplined, long-term plan to create a metaphorical greenhouse for this natural endowment of yours.

what the hell is he talking about????

Sarah Jewler died

I was reading an obituary in the New York times that this woman died. She was editor of NY magazine, an avid congo drummer and later i learned was in a rock and roll band. She died of a rare blood disease.. I was struck by her job and that among all that she did as a journalist, writing for the village voice and rolling stone, she was a conga drummer too and belonged to drumming circles. That seemed to add some humanity to her obituary. she was 56 years old.

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

TV commericals

I cant get used to the Band, Richard Julien, Dylan, John Fogerty songs on TV commericals...

especially the Band for Cingular Cellphone

Heros and Goats

Aaron Brown is my hero....He always starts with the war in does he know the weather in Chicago in the morning papers and always has it right??

Armstrong Williams is a goat for taking 240,000 of tax payers money to support NO Child left behind..Goat...HE is a liar and the administration committed fraud by misusing tax payers funds again...

Randy Johnson will be a goat...A-Rod is a goat...

the people of southern asian effected by the Tsunami are my heros....

My sister is my hero.. She works a part time job, does science projects with her kids, makes cookies, lets her kids grow and develop, is the coolest mom and i know and still gets in Desparate housewives and the BIg Loser..

I have the WW best leader who is like a personal coach ....she will help anyone who needs it ,gives us her email for access to her and will go the extra mile to help us with whatever we need help with.. knows each of her regulars, their triggers and their successes and applauds us and is a member too... she is supportive and caring.... she is the best......and is committed WW... she is my role model and hero...

MOMA is a goat for charging people way too much to see Art

Christo and Jean Claude are heros for draping Central Park, raising their own funds
and giving art for free to the city of NY..(see the gates)

George Clooney is a hero for taking on Bill Of the factor Oreilly
and Oreilly is a GOAT and i think he always will be

Mario Batali is a hero in the kitchen stadium

Arlen Specter is a hero ...

Negroponte is a goat
Cheney is a goat
Rumsfeld is a goat
Chalabi is a goat and the president is goat for paying him all that $$$
paying reporters to support your position gets you goat status
Curt Schilling is a goat for supporting B*sh in red sox country but a hero for staninding by his man

Michael jackson is a goat for calling his famous friends to his trial

the NFL is a goat for their censoring of the superbowl..

paul mccartney is a goat for playing white bread music at the superbowl except when he played GET back and sang about a transexual or crossdresser..

Now that is has been discovered that "Jeff Gannon"
(real name James D. Guckert), a "reporter" for Talon News Service, a
front operation run by the conservative Republican-oriented,
was using an alias as a cleared White House reporter, details are
emerging that threaten to immerse the Bush administration in a major
scandal. WHO is the Goat?????

NYU is the goat for paving the bottomline and putting in classrooms-

Columbia is a hero for taking the Place where Malcolm X was shot and making it into a museum with the help of the Shabazz family...

Columbia gets my $$$... I am an alum of NYU... they dont

Rob Brezney's horoscope for Capricorn 1-6-05

Horoscope for week of January 6

Your symbol for the week is a sparrow flying low to the ground. Not an eagle soaring high over the treetops, not a hawk gliding on updrafts, but a small, humble bird whizzing along just inches above the turf. In other words, Capricorn, seek transcendence even as you remain down to earth. Be light, airy, and swift, but don't put yourself above the fray. Declare your independence from the more oppressive aspects of the law of gravity, but stay near the same level as the heavy, plodding creatures.

snow falling in January

It flurried today... .I always think of the Christmas episode of Charlie Brown where Lucy tells the kids that they should not eat December snowflakes , as they try to catch them on their tongue.
She tells them snowflakes dont become ripe til January...

I guess the snowflakes were ripe today.....

Hazy Shade of Winter

see what's become of me
While I looked around for my possibilities.
I was so hard to please.
Look around,
Leaves are brown,
And the sky is a hazy shade of winter.
Hear the Salvation Army band.
Down by the riverside's
Bound to be a better ride
Than what you've got planned.
Carry your cup in your hand.A
And look around.
Leaves are brown.
And the sky is a hazy shade of winter.
Hang on to your hopes, my friend.
That's an easy thing to say,
But if your hopes should pass away
Simply pretend that you can build them again.
Look around,
The grass is high,
The fields are ripe,
It's the springtime of my life.
Seasons change with the scenery;
Weaving time in a tapestry.
Won't you stop and remember me
At any convenient time?
Funny how my memory skips
Looking over manuscripts
Of unpublished rhyme.
Drinking my vodka and lime,
I look around,
Leaves are brown,
And the sky is a hazy shade of winter.
Paul Simon

Monday, January 10, 2005


I was out last night at town hall seeing suzanne vega and marc cohn in a cobill.. and suzanne went first..
She sang Anniversary...
one of her tribute songs that was written a year after 9-11, actually 9-16-02.
the use of language slayed me...
who developes these incredible rhymes...

"Thick with ghosts,
the wind whips round in circuitries
Carrying words as strangers exchange pleasantries
Do they intrude upon your private reveries
As they meet you on every corner
Meet you on each street.

Watch for daily braveries
Notice newfound courtesies
Finger sudden legacies...
As they wash down each corner
Clean up every street."You can see the whole song

She then sang a new song written after reading the obituary of Olivia Goldsmith, writer of the First Wives CLub among other works, Suzanne explained she read Goldsmith's FAshionably late and was struck that Ms Goldsmith died while in surgery as she was having a face lift.
She further explained she was reading lots of Edith Wharton at the time...
The song started with "edith wharton's figurines..."

Suzanne Vega used an obituary again in Tom's Diner when she is reading the paper about the actor who died who she didnt know but he died of drinking.

she also wrote a song called... I wont be your Maggie May.. her answer to Rod Stewarts...
maggie may, written from maggie's stand point.

i sat on the train last night.. and thought about what smart songwriter are among my favorites....

"As tennessee(williams) walks in moth eaten robes..."

Popular culture references,
Yoko Ono influencing his art-i'll sell your songs to nike,
We'd be saying love is all you need ..
"A g-d descended" written after reading IB Singer's Satan of Goray.

"Tempe, Arizona thinks the Everglades are greener and wetter,
And Washington, D. C. thinks that Atlanta integrated better,
But I think that southern California has more pain that we can say,
Cause it wants to travel back in time,
but it just can't leave L. A. "

and then there is mary chapin carpenter...
who writes about comets, versions of heaven based The Lovely Bones
, an obituary of a blind deaf man, and all those imageries..
Towns, cities and her use of language ....

the intellect of these three women just sent my head spinning..

and then it hit me.... the last of my favorites... writes... " you read your Emily Dickinson and I my robert frost." St Judy's Comet is a lullabye only to be compared to Dreamland but the comets of Halley and st judy's are more than comet songs.

Rene and Georgia who dance to moonglows, penguins after walking on Christopher street...
New york features prominently in the music of all three artists... Okay..i cheat
Mary Chapin sings of Grand Central Station, Suzanne of TOm's Diner and Cathedral Bells of St John of the Divine, Dar of Spring Street and Paul Simon weaves NY through his songs, like the Zoo at central park, bleeker street, Corona where rosie lives,
the 59th street bridge and the only living boy lives in NYC

these are 4 of my favorites....

ed sullivan theater- who is the letterman audience?

I was walking by the Ed Sullivan theater on saturday night and saw a
sign for free tickets, so i entered. Behind me entered a male and female 20
somethings who were from out of town. the young perky 20 something blonde
looked over my head and addressed these younger individual as they asked for
tickets for saturday night.
when she explained that there was no taping, they turned to leave.
She looked at me as i asked a question and remarked " are you still here?'
it was not her intension to be rude or offensive but she clearly had not
addressed me prior, though i was first in line.
This experience in front of the Ed Sullivan theater is not uncommon. The ticket
solicitors seems to have a "target" audience demographic and seem to solicit
tourist and "camera" friendly people. or that is the impression that is
I thought this woman was discrimatory and offensive and did not serve the
Ageism, i think so

why is it ???

Why is it that the NY Times puts important articles like the objection to the Election and Ohio
protest on a hidden inside page of the front section?

why is it that most people remain uninformed?

why isnt anyone outraged that someone was paid 240,000 to report and support NO CHILD LEFT BEHIND?

Friday, January 07, 2005

Barbara Boxer is my hero

Thank you Barbara Boxer for being courageous enough to object to the election in OHIO. its been confessed and proven that there are many irregularities in the voting process in Ohio. I dont trust the election results, without paper records of ballots, Diebold workers admitting to cheat sheets, not enough voting machines for people to vote, software that caused more irregularites, promises of delivering Ohio, 4 hour waits to vote, changes in polling places. HOW can you trust the election results...

Barbara Boxer is the bravest senator........

the cost of health care

Yesterday was the first time in my life that I chose NOT to fill a prescription from my doctor because of the cost of the prescription. My agency chose to institute a 100 deductible for perscription rather than increasing employee contributions or increasing the agency health care cost. Therefore the 100 dollars which really is 120 with co pay is required. I didnt balk at the 47 when i had to buy antibiotics for my bronchitis but 70 dollars for nasal spray to decongest my sinus cavities was beyond what i was willing to pay. I asked for a cheaper drug and the doctor told me she will give me one that would work. I respect that but i think that the drug representative who visits her provides her with some incentive to write the script for that brand.. calling my plan, i had to pay the whole amount.. any similar drug would cost the same thing so i chose NOT to fill the
script but get an over the counter generic nasal spray that may or may not do the same thing. I askled about the OTC drug and decided that i wanted it anyway.. i bought the cheapest..
isnt it about time that all drugs should be affordable and these choices should not have to be made. the cost of health care is astronomical, not be cause of law suits or insurance but because the industry of medicine is greedy and wants to keep their profits high... there is no real interest in the best medical care only keeping medical care expensive.

Monday, January 03, 2005

The Zen of 45

attending a friend's 50th bday party on sunday, made me realize that I better start thinking and working on turning 45. i asked my friend Jeffrey how old he was and he said 52 and he told me that the Zero years have not been bad for him... 30, 40, 50 but the ones ending in 5 have been hard.. he said like 45... i said Jeff I am turning 45 in a few weeks. He said he heard me say it earlier that day.. I was one of the youngest at the party and 45 seemed like a treat... to them...

so driving to work, today, i thought about the Zen of 45 and entering my 45th year open to whatever comes.. and to be at peace with the year without thinking of all the could have, should have ,would have beens but the now and the future and the possibilities... it really hasnt put the regrets out of my mind but its a stance to strive for...

so tonight i walked in the rain and i listened to the Green World, then Between Here and Gone..
it started to rain rain rain... so i pulled my collar up to the cold and rain in classic MCC song fashion and walked on... "so I havent lived in paris or travelled by Lear " from Beautiful Racquet or I have my share of i supposed to have NO regrets or have regrets and be kind to them and forgive them... i forget which....

. Then i moved to listen to the The Essential Mary Chapin Carpenter and got to The long way home..

Accidents and inspiration lead you to your destination
Or you can be the one to take the long way home
Roll down the window, turn off the phone
See your life as a gift from the great unknown
and your task is to receive it
Tell your kid a story, hold your lover tight
Make a joyful noise, swim naked at night
read a poem a day, call in well sometime
and laugh when they believe you
Funny now how it goes by so fast
One day im looking over my shoulder at the past
now everyone got to go, got to be, got to get somewhere
Baby dont forget about
you really shouldnt forget about
baby dont forget about whats got you there
i think its what got you there

mary chapin carpenter

I was starting to think about what has gotten me there.... when i stopped at the parkway and a huge SUV hit a puddle and splashed me from chest to toes with dirty street water......
i took it as an omen that i should not take turning 45 too seriously.... and take my zen approach or i should have just danced in the rain..... i just laughed at the whole thing....
i should ask for advise on turning 45 as i gave my friend Fay advise on being 40 ....

Wander Lust on the way to work 1/3/05

Looks like I pulled a fast one
Looks like I went to town
Looks like the world revolves around me
Looks like it's falling down.
I thought I'd kicked the traces
I thought the wheels would spin
I thought I'd jumped the fence and bolted
Looks like I'm back again

I got my signals crossed.
It's overwhelming because
I'm all alone and I can't get back
Get back with my wanderlust.I
had to grab a suitcaseI had to change my clothes
I had to run the shower hot
until the water froze
I brushed against confusion
I wanted time to grow
I want the sticks and stones not to throw me
get back to what I know

I got my signals crossed.
It's overwhelming because
I'm all alone and I can't get back
Get back with my wanderlust.
I got my signals crossed

.It's overwhelming because
I'm all alone and I can't get back
Get back with my wanderlust.
I got my signals crossed.It's overwhelming because
I'm all alone and I can't get back
Get back with my wanderlust.

Sunday, January 02, 2005

january 2- People returning ...

Since before the new year..people who had been out of my life by my choosing or by circumstance had started to reappear. It began in the summer and then picked up speed in the fall. It seems almost karmic or kosmic.. I dont mean people i havent seen for a while, though that has been happening but people whom i have a issue or strained relationship are coming back into my life looking for resolution or maybe not... Maybe i need the resolution or closure or to work through the issues to clean out the strain.. Sometimes i have needed to explain or apologize and sometimes them...I accept anyone who comes back to me but it doesnt mean that the person has the same place or role.. it just that i can be forgiven or forgive whatever the need be..
its very weird and wonderful when these things happen...

In thinking about my blog yesterday... i took a longer look at the year that past.. My work life left more to be desired.. I realized that the spring and excitement of someone hired became someone dreaded and All about Eve events.. Then there was the fickle nature of people and a few honest souls who took a risk... From below and then from above... It was not one of my best work years... I have had worse.. for sure..but i have had better...

and as i attended a friends bday party today... She turns 50.... i realized that i have to start thinking about turning 45... i know i am not looking forward to it... it seems like an end to so many things ..rather than a beginning of others... But life holds things we cant predict or explain.. so i am hopeful that all is not lost because the number says ... 45.....

Saturday, January 01, 2005

January 1st

what better day to start a blog than the first day of January.. New Years Day always starts the year with much anticipation and the idea that the following year will being all sorts of things, Will they be wonderful or painful ... not knowing what the year will bring.
I couldnt not have imagined some of the wild and wonderful and exciting and unexpected things that i encountered last year.
i am grateful for the year behind me and all of the good things that came into my life, all the fun and friends and good choices i made.
it was hard at times.. work wasnt always easy and i wasnt sure if id be working this time this year but i am and i am grateful.
2004 was a good personal year but 2004 was disappointing on another level. the cold of the winter of 2004 finally broke in May and the rains of summer, raining out the major festivals. I wasnt going anyway and then the election of 2004. I am sure as the year progresses, i will continue those themes.
2004 i found the apprentice and food network and continue to trust Aaron Brown who is the only newsman who starts every broadcast with Iraq.
2004 brought select concerts... okay 8 Mary Chapin Carpenter shows on the Between Here and Gone tour and almost all dar williams shows except two or three.. I got to go to NH, Vermont,
Virginia, Maryland, Pa, Massachusetts, shows in NJ and NY... i sure had fun... all that driving driving driving and seeing friends along the way... i went to some new places .. Annapolis MD twice and the eastern shore of MD. i went off the beaten path a few times to pick lilacs and found the flying red horse. I went to Charlottesville and went off the path to see stables and farms and the countryside. I went off to see Imax a few times while on the road and lots of shopping and sightseeing. Riding thru MD, the roadside stands for melons and cantaloupes which served as breakfast.
It was a good year. A trip to Oregon and one to florida to celebrate a friends bday...

to start 2004... i reluctantly....but i went shopping today and in each store, the price tags and sales tags were different. A coat at more than 60% off.. i got it at the lower rate, a gift bought at a lower rate than i expected. One sweater marked at 19.99 and the rest at 29.99 and i got it for 19.99 without a word passed. A sale on Stretch shirts at Target... if this was an omen for the year ahead.

Resolutions.. maybe... to reassess and tweak how i live my life. I am going to give as much to myself as i do for others.

I will lose those 10 lbs finally and keep exercising 5x a week... it wouldnt be me without this one..
make the changes that i have put into motion in 2004...

simple... simple.. and simple...

now let see what the year will hold or unfold... blessed for sure.. blessed i am